Run tomorrow. I can always make time for a run. If it’s good for my sanity, it is worth spending my time on.
In an empty blue room, a small girl faces the largest foe - the voices in her head.
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May 27, 2012
May 26, 2012
A reply to a reply.
I feel a need to assert a fact about a previous post, as I feel it night not have been clear. It’s not necessarily important, but something I feel should be said anyway.
It isn’t that I am in a bad mood today and cannot sympathize because I have concerns of my own to deal with. I’m feeling pretty good today. It is actually that I have very little capacity for sympathy. Empathy? Yes. Compassion? Not so much.
I am indeed very capable of internalizing another person’s feelings, emotions, considerations or concerns. I am unable, however, to turn that internalization into an outward response - the fact that I can feel what they feel, does not produce any feelings within me.
May 26, 2012
do i like economics because i’m a cold soulless bitch
is that it
it must be i am basically the sixteen year old equivalent of a douchebag wall street suit
May 26, 2012
Wearing thin.
I am finding it very difficult to deal with my best friend’s emotional outburst right now. I love her, but she is stressed, and I have no empathy for her condition.
I hope she can understand that I don’t have the emotional capacity to comfort her. I am simply incapable of communicating a comforting feeling to her - I know how she feels, but I don’t care. I cannot find it in myself to care.
This might be dangerous. It is certainly uncomfortable for all involved. But there isn’t anything I can do about it, I think.
How ironic is it that I’m bitching to the internet about her bitching? I’m awful.
May 26, 2012
Looking at books on the desk:
“Mineral Impurities In Coal Combustion”
“Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire”
“Evaluation of CO2 Capture from Existing Coal Fired Plants”
“Lord of the Flies”
“The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo”
Thesis statement: This is a shared desk between me and my father, as evidenced by the variety of books that are present upon it.
May 26, 2012
Anyone interested in the Chicago School of Economics?
I’m writing a research paper on the history of said school, and I need some inspiration / stimulating, intellectual conversation. Come have a brain party with me - I only bite sometimes.
May 23, 2012
So sad and I don’t know why.
May 23, 2012
Soar.
Today was terrible and I’ve been such a space cadet.
I wish I actually was a space cadet and then I would have an excuse for my mind to wander the universe.
I can’t help it if I love to leave the realms of the possible because what fun is it being confined within four walls and a social construct?
I like physics and metrology and the universe on my terms.
Someday either I’ll be fabulously wealthy or I will live a relatively simple life
but either way I’ll do whatever I please - I refuse to live like this.
I refuse to give up my citizenship of the stars to gain membership to human society.
May 22, 2012
Summer nights on the roof staring at the stars
are the most precious thing I never owned
May 22, 2012
I really think this is the kind of thing medication is supposed to help with.
So my run-ins with the boys are lowered, thereby increasing my concentration, thereby decreasing the likelyhood that I’ll be up on a Monday night at 2 in the morning having drunk a giant cup of coffee and not being able to do work OR sleep, and feeling overall very much like this isn’t the sort of all-nighter one wants to pull.
I am sick of being sick.
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I should create a band with my internet friends.
We can call it ‘Mixed Nuts’.
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